Help, someone give me the confidence I lack and the support I need, and please make that person not be my mother. So as I could never say what I feel or what I want I’m just going to write it. I thought I could write songs to express my feelings and stuff but I don’t have any musical skills, and you’re lucky I have already gone pass that. Also I’m not going to write anything poetic or well written because, then again, I couldn’t. So I’m just going to write. I’m going to write about how I want to tell this boy I like him, but I can’t or about why the hell should I care how I look like all the time, or about how we think life is hard and we haven’t seen a thing yet, or about how I’ve only been drunk once in my life, it’s pathetic, I’m pathetic, but this is me.
Once I heard that you should write about things that make you uncomfortable, to step out of your comfort zone and take a risk. But I don’t agree, because writing about something that makes you uncomfortable is writing about something that is not you, and that is the whole point of writing, isn’t it? It has to come from inside you, and you have to enjoy it because “when you stop doing things for fun you might as well be dead.” (Ernest Hemingway)
And then there are the things I would like to write about, like for instance love or the pain love causes you, but I don’t know a thing about love. It’s not that I’ve never liked someone, it’s that I’ve never been able to tell them. I feel like shouting I’m in love, but I’m in a public library, and that’d be awkward, what the hell am I doing in a public library? I’m almost 18 and I don’t have a clue about what is going to happen with my life, so I thought I might just go to a library and write about nothing. At least it makes me feel a bit better, I suppose.
I just want to leave a mark in the words, everybody’s big obsession. For me is not about leaving that mark it’s about the thing I should have to do to leave it. It has to be something big, something that makes the world stop, that helps someone somewhere. Like when you listen to that Bob Dylan song and everything stops for a second, and you forget about everything and you just sing along and you’re happy. I just one to make someone feel like that.
writing through noise 